“will-o’-the-wisp”
What is love? Is it same as relationship? Or those are 2 different things? Than what is companionship? And why it’s always called an eternal love? Is it possible for one to love someone selflessly? How easy or hard to love someone? How you defined or feel the love? Is it ok to be confused bout it? Is it ok to don’t know what love is?
Why we ended up explaining ourselves in the name of love where we expect understanding? Does it feel judgment in a name of care? Or is it just other person perspective that they try to impose on you? And make you feel that you doing something miserably wrong. And later just said, it’s out of love and care. Does that make us think or change ourselves? And the worst come after, tum badal gaye ho.
Why is it so necessary to open up or speak you feel, especially in love? Just to create our image in their head or built perspective about us? And why they start thinking that its their duty to makes us happy or be part of our pain? Do relationship is all bout that, to break the person so that can amend? Is that a whole purpose of relationship & love, to be a savior or to make them realize that you are broken and I m your savior? Or we do that to feel superior?
Why is start feel different? Why we not allowed being ourselves? And when we broke up suddenly they become cheerful. So is that all bout cheering each other up all the time after breaking them? What bout individualism? Why is it so hard to understand? And why one have to worry bout other? What is a need of it? I mean what good will come out of that.
Lets talk bout misunderstanding and trust. How and where does that come from? Why we seek trust? Why we are afraid of their reactions or response to speak our mind? Doesn’t that has to be other way round? We try to build the trust for what, to shatter one day? And when we go silent all of a sudden they are worry and sad, I mean what is that bout?
I mean does this all bout love and relationship, and who decide all those factors for us? Does it for us to make that rules and someone else defined that for us? Aren’t we allowed to just be ourselves and make our own rules? Is it ok to be confused in love also is it ok to be confused bout love? What bout affection? When that affection turn into love, who can tell? How bout admiration? Love brings the worst and best out of people, but who can tell? And also, do we really need to bring those things out of us? What is a need? I’m sure, it can help us evolve and make us learn things. But why is that important? Why one has to go through it to be so called wiser?
It says love makes us feel butterfly in stomach but does that happen all the time? How bout a time when its hammer on head? And why only speak bout butterfly and not bout hammer? Does that also part of love to maintain certain image for love? So that people keep believing and have faith in love? Why we make a big deal bout it? I know it not happen every day to everyone, but still.
What bout freedom? It says love frees you but why we have been questioned of every action? Is it ok not to share everything? And if not, why we make feel guilty bout it? Why can’t we be free and not confined or just to feel confined?
Or is it ok to feel that way in love? Or is it part of love and relationship? And if so, why we not talk bout it? Why we not embrace it? Why always talk bout bright and happy side of it? Why is it so hard to shade a light on other side too? Or is it just me? Is it my realism or lovism?
Why is it always an outer view, how bout inner reflections? How bout the changes that love bring in me? Am I willing to accept it or cherish it or even deal with it? Why is it so hard to say things to love which comes out easy to others? Is it because of love or is it because of my understanding of love? Why I feel hurt by words, reactions, responses or even sometime expression, which is not at all problem if I m just a friend or any other person? What is it that I’m doing wrong or not able to understand? Does that mean I don’t know what love is or I don’t know how to accept the love? Why I become needy and seeker in love, which ultimately hurt me only? How can I make a difference to understand myself to understand love? Everyone says, I m a good husband materials, but why I feel short bout my need? Why I always feel disappointed or misunderstood? Is it because I put myself out too much in love that one takes me from granted? Or as it says always keep love on toe so that it can always keep on appreciate you. Which is, again I’m not sure right things to do. And when I talk bout it, one more question, why do I feel to be appreciated? Does that the reason we share everything, to feel good bout?
Why i feel different being in love? Why I feel unhappy sometime? And though I feel happy other time, why I emphasize on unhappy time? Is it because I don’t have what it takes to be in love. Or I don’t want to be in love. Or is it just my way of getting away from love? When I’m alone, I’m the happiest person, sorted, wiser, childish and awesome. So is it just because I miss being myself, I run away from love or I find the way to run away from love? Do I have commitment issue or the expectation comes with commitment is my issue? Or I’m just afraid the blame might fall upon me if anything goes wrong? Or I’m just afraid to be hurt or to lose that person? Is it my fear or happiness stop me or make me not being in love?
So at the end, the question still remain, what is love?
